Dear Moms-To-Be,

Mother's Day is just a couple days away and of course I am overjoyed and overwhelmed by the tiny human being growing inside of me. My miracle. My gift from God. But I am also heart broken for my loved ones who are longing to feel that little person moving inside of them. Those who are not yet mothers and those who are mothers longing for another child.

I remember a year ago crying through the whole church service and turning down a lunch invitation with our sweet pastor and his family because I was so broken. I was bitter. I secretly envied those women who got to take a potted plant home with them as gift just because someone called them "mom". I went home and cried myself to sleep. I wanted to be a mom. I wanted a baby to need me.

When I was on my infertility journey multiple women came to me to share their own stories to encourage me. I had no idea just how many people had the same struggle as me. In those moments I felt like I was the only one. It made me realize how many women that I didn't even know about were struggling. Some I worked with or went to church with were likely dealing with infertility and I didn't even know.

While I am so thankful for this baby sometimes I do wonder why God has chosen to give me a baby when so many of my friends are still longing for that. It's something that has changed me forever. It has made me more compassionate. Its has made me realize that everyone out there goes through their own secret struggles. That just because people look okay on the outside they are crying on the inside.

As I prepare to welcome  my daughter into the world I think about you and I pray for you often. The best advice I can give you...it will happen. Someday. Maybe not this month or this year. I know so many of you have been waiting so long and some of you have suffered tragedy, but you will have a little one who needs you one day. It won't be when you are expecting it. It will be when God allows it to happen. And let me tell you, when it is in God's timing it is so much more precious. It is so worth the wait.

So hang on. Trust in Him. I am still having to learn to do that everyday. Though I have had nine ultrasounds and I know she is healthy and growing it is still very easy to doubt that she will be okay. Ultimately I know God is taking care of the miracle he has given me. It just amazes me how easily I doubt God sometimes when I have proof that he has taken care of me. So we will do this together. We will trust. We will have faith that one day we will be mothers. So from one mom-to-be to another, Happy Mother's Day. I look forward to the day when we are all sitting around cradling our little ones sharing mom stories! :)